little girl’s antics

she is such a big girl!
she now knows how to put on deodorant…

and how to put her socks on…

my big, big, big, girl!

trying to organize

i have been in front of my laptop for hours now, and can’t seem to stop. i am trying to organize my files: pics mp3’s,videos… and it’s taking a long time. living in a digital world is supposed to make our lives easier right? so why am i still up at 2:30 a.m. trying to organize the gazillion files i’ve accumulated. oh well, it is all my fault, i should’ve developed a system whenever i download my files rather than telling my self i’ll arrange everything when i find the time… procrastination galore!

 

crazy…

Gnarls Barkley

Crazy

I remember when, I remember, I remember when I lost my
mind
There was something so pleasant about that phase.
Even your emotions had an echo
In so much space

And when you’re out there
Without care,
Yeah, I was out of touch
But it wasn’t because I didn’t know enough
I just knew too much

Does that make me crazy
Does that make me crazy
Does that make me crazy
Probably

And I hope that you are having the time of your life
But think twice, that’s my only advice
Come on now, who do you, who do you, who do you, who do you think you are,
Ha ha ha bless your soul
You really think you’re in control

Well, I think you’re crazy
I think you’re crazy
I think you’re crazy
Just like me

My heroes had the heart to lose their lives out on a limb
And all I remember is thinking, I want to be like them
Ever since I was little, ever since I was little it looked like fun
And it’s no coincidence I’ve come
And I can die when I’m done

Maybe I’m crazy
Maybe you’re crazy
Maybe we’re crazy
Probably

**i wish i can be crazy and without a care more often.
being a goody-goody can be boring and can lead to early onset midlife crisis.

**i wish i had it in me to just act as i want to and not
think about what others will think about me, it drives me crazy.

**i wish i can be crazy-courageous and not be safe and
scared all the time.

**i thank God that i found the perfect man who has just
enough craziness in him to understand the craziness in me…which i often don’t
understand myself…

**i am grateful that i know how it feels to be crazy in
love.

**i miss the crazy days spent with my barkada, when life
was still simple and uncomplicated.

**i miss my mom and her crazy invented words…

**i just love watching my baby girl do her crazy antics.

**i hate politics and politicians. simply crazy.

**i just love and appreciate the fact that my God is
crazy enough to love and forgive the sinner that i am, over and over and over
again.

bug

As part of hubby’s bday celebration, after having dinner at chef ‘d angelo’s, we watched the movie “bug”. it starred ashley judd, harry connick jr., and michael shannon. It is based on a novel and play about a lonely girl who lives in a dingy oklahoma motel room and a creepy ex military spewing off conspiracy theories every chance he gets. this is such an intense film from the man who gave us “the exorcist” eons ago, william friedkin. michael shannon reprises his role in the play as peter evans, the ex soldier who is convinced that the government used him as a petri dish and implanted bugs under his skin as part of a top secret government experiment. he gives a compelling performance as a delusional man who really believes that bugs are literally crawling and living in his body. he exhibits enough vulnerability that makes you believe that he is a good, sane man victimized by the government, yet exudes  dark force as evidenced by spurts of violence, either inflicted
on himself or on others. ashley judd is such a revelation in this movie! i have always liked her, from the serious action/drama: double jeopardy, high crimes and twisted to the cutesy wootsie movie someone like you. i just like her… her face, her acting. in this movie, she’s not dolled up and yet you can still see how pretty she is. she gives so much emotion in the way she delivers her lines, her acting lets you know how it feels to be a simple-minded separated woman who lost her child in a grocery store 10 years ago and now feels that she has nothing to live for and no one to claim as her own. a desparate, sad woman who’d give anything to keep the first relationship she’d had in years.

i know not everyone will agree, but i loved this movie. they talked a lot, and usually that is a big turn off for me, but this time, the emotions and the intensity that flows between these two people having a conversation was entertaining enough for me. this is such a powerful movie about loneliness, paranoia, and well, shared insanity i guess. did they really have bugs in their skin? was it all in their minds? you be the judge.

a simple creepy film with great acting. definitely worth watching.

more news on bea

last monday we went for bea’s scheduled upper GI xray and it was confirmed that she had reflux problems. she was made to lie down and daddy fed her with milk mixed with barium. we can see the milk as it goes down to her tummy. she was made to lie on her back, then on her side. so far so good. she drank the milk with little resistance, probably coz she’s had nothing to eat or drink for the last 4 hours, a requirement for this test. then the docs just observed her, after 5 minutes, we saw clearly in the monitor her milk slowly coming back up her esophagus. hay, no wonder she keeps on throwing up. we also had her blood checked as per instructions of her pedia.

the following day we went to the pedia gastro, and she told us that according to her initial check up with bea, her motor skills has no problem. they had to rule this out since this could mean weak muscles of the digestive tract. she also said that bea’s development was at par with others. she advised us to stop feeding her through a syringe, and try feeding her in a cup instead, this can help with her reflux since she will be feeding in an upright position. she insisted on us being consistent. she also upped bea’s meds: motilium and omepron. plus she asked our pedia to refer us to an occupational therapist who will help re-train bea to eat, suck, chew and swallow again. the therapist will also be able to diagnose if bea has a swallowing problem.  the only problem is that no therapist has clinic hours on saturdays, meaning, absent na naman.

the docs were quite honest with us. they said this will be a long process. and i bet quite an expensive one too. oh well, i just hold on one thought: God will provide.

update: we’ve been trying to feed her in a cup for 2 days now, more milk spillage. less milk drank. still with vomiting. currently running a fever. my boss reminded me no more absences, at least for the next two weeks…  problems just keep on pilin’ up.

i hold on to one thought: God will
provide solutions and answers… in His time.
 

more than meets the eye

just watched the movie Transformers. loved it! if ever you’re going to watch it, be sure to watch it in a good cinema coz the sound effects are amazing, literally will shake your seat! the fight scenes are superb. the story is simple really, enemy robots come to earth to look for a cube, that is a power source of sorts, they meet earthlings who, the autobots decide, are worth risking their robotic lives for since they see some good in the new generation. fight. fight. fight! the simple plot works for the movie instead of against it since a thick, twisty plot would’ve shifted your focus from the sheer joy of watching icons of your (well mine at least) childhood take each other on in the big screen.
shia labeouf is funny and entertaining, a very good casting choice indeed. megan fox is a bit blah though, her only contribution is her flat abs and pouty lips, not even that pretty for my taste. josh duhamel on the other hand is simply yummy as the soldier who helps fight off megatron and his posse, and without even taking his shirt off!
hearing optimus prime’s voice gave me goosebumps, you see they used the voice of the original prime, and peter cullen delivered his script is a deliberate, confident, booming manner. so optimus prime.
i just loved the funny scenes, shia is such a goofball, and well, so were the robots. =) watch the movie to find out more!
michael bay as usual, delivered in this movie. as i said the action scenes were simply great, the cgi, almost flawless. the chase scene in the highway with cars exploding and flying everywhere just reminded me of the movie bad boys so much. maybe next time he can choose some other venue for car chases and explosions =)
great entertaining movie! hubby had this wide smile pasted on his face during the whole movie! needless to say, we were very satisfied… and are planning to watch it for the second time!

sunday afternoon…

after lunch, excited na si bea… lakwatsa time!

sobrang excited, she wasn’t able to sleep until we left for the mall. probably she was afraid she’d be left behind. when she heard daddy start the van, she was so excited, wanting to get in immediately. =) while on the way to the mall, she kept on babbling “beabeabeabea”… a little narcissistic i know, but heck, she’s just a baby! =)

when we got to the mall, daddy bought bea the toy of her dreams… a little barney doll that sings whenever its tummy is pressed. as expected super happy si baby!

                

we also  let her try those rides where you put in a token and the ride will move for SECONDS. hehehe. little bea was so enthralled with the first ride, a jeep! like daddy, like baby, she liked the idea of driving, although on the second time, she lost interest already and wanted to get off.  then daddy put her on the ride where the seat is attached to a big wheel that goes round… on this ride she got afraid.  sayang ang tagal pa naman ng andar. =)

                                      

then we let her and yaya play in My Playroom, excited na naman si little girl, dami toys!

            

 by the time we got home, bea was so tired that she fell asleep in the van… another tiring but fun, fun, fun  time….